Adventures @ Sea World

Today, Jason and I went with Dana, Logan and Evan, to Sea World. We had a great time walking around and enjoying the sunshine after this week of doom and gloom. We went and experienced the new underwater exhibit for Manta. It was so neat! Here are some pictures of our day...

Happy Birthday Dana!

Saturday was my Bestest Best Friend Dana's Birthday. We had so much fun just "shoot 'n' the shit" with her and her friend Kersa. We had yummy cake provided by Dana's husband, John. Surprisingly the cake looked good too. We kept calling it doughnut, because it looked like the doughnut from "The Simpson's".



Looking back through the years,
I can't believe how long
We have been best friends,
Through good times and bad.

When I needed someone to cry,
With me and laugh together
Give me a shoulder to lean on,
And a hug to make me feel better.

You know how true it is,
When you know that no matter what
Happens or goes on down the road,
That there will always be best friends.

So as time passes and days go by,
Just remember that when you need me
That no matter what time or place,
I will always be there by your side, my best friend.


I love you Dana!

2 in the Morning

Best Night Ever!

Last night, Dana, John, Vonnie and I, went to the New Kids on the Block concert. Let just say I have waited almost 15 years to see them in concert. This was truly a dream come true. Growing up Vonnie and I were major "Block Heads". I still remember us getting all dressed up and putting on concerts for our parents :)

So, the concert was amazing!!! We had really good seats. Like really good. Like 4 rows from them good. We couldn't have asked for better seats (unless there seats on stage ;))

As soon as the music started for the intro I got chills (there multiplying). I started to cry when they raised up from the center of the stage. It was an amazing night. AMAZING! AMAZING!

My camera, for how dinky it is, got some really good shots. I hope you enjoy (because Dana, John, Vonnie and I sure did)!

Random

Here are some random pictures from this past year...


Driving through the mountains after an ice storm.


Heather and Scott's first kiss as man and wife.


My mommy and me at Halloween.


Heather's last night as a single lady.


What a cute couple!

Jeremy and Tracy 3/7/200

On Saturday, our good friends, Jeremy and Tracy, finally tied the knot. I say finally because they have been together forever and it was about time :)

It was a really low key, backyard wedding. I must say it was one of the funniest weddings I have been to. We got to reconnect with a bunch of old friends, and play Rock Band 2. Like I said, one of the funniest weddings.

Here are some of the pictures from the days events. I didn't take a lot because, well, I had a lot to drink and stopped caring after a while. LOL!

Enjoy...

Happy Birthday to Me!

Yesterday was My 30th birthday. I decided to make it a 30's theme and have everyone dress up. I was not sure if everyone would but thought it was a fun idea. Boy was I wrong, everyone get dressed to the nines. Jason wore his tux. He looked so dashing it my made my heart skip a beat. My mom and sisters looked amazing. They really thought their outfits and looked amazing. All my friends looked great too. It made me so happy that they played "dress up" with me.

We went to Capone's Dinner and Show in Kissimee. It was such great fun walking in dress up like we were part of the show. It is set up like a Speakeasy, so you have to knock three time and whisper low the secret password. Once you walk in they take you "mugshot". Ours turned out great ( I will post it as soon as I get it scanned). The food was pretty good, it was typical italian food with some comfort food thrown in for good measure. Our server, "Tiny", was awesome. He had a surprisingly big bit in the show.
The show itself was, as Jason puts it, cheesey fun. The actors were terribly funny. They had some great gags like "Fork you". The lead Ms. Jewel was awesome. She reminded me (and Dana) of an old friens Alexis. The songs were funny, especialy the " Tribute to Fruit". Everyone enjoyed it (I even saw Scott smile a couple of times).

I had such a great time last night. Thanks to everyone for coming and spending my birthday with me. It is one that I will remember always.

My mom and sisters looking Fabulous!

Our server, "Tiny".

Our Fabulous looking group with the cast of
Capone's.

Strike a Pose.

Test Results

Jason and I went to the doctor on Tuesday to find out the test results from this last month of testing. We knew from the HSG that I had Cervical Stenosis, a blocked cervix, but they did not know why. Well after all the blood work and ultrasounds, they still do not know. My doctor says that I can try the HSG test again, but this time she will diolate the cervix and give me pain medicine so the radiologist does't have to fight with my cervix again. YAY!

Come January I will go through all the test again but this time with a better outcome. After I take the HSG test this time, they will know if my tubes are open are not, and then I will go in Clomid or Metformin to ovulate.

Hopefully this time next year there a new addition our family. * Fingers, and Toes, Crossed*

Party

This weekend we had Jason's birthday party. It was so much fun.
I would love to thank Dana for all her help in the planning and setting up. You are a life saver.
Dana and I killed it in the Karaoke part of the party. I think that was the highlight of the evening.

Jason looked like he had a great time. I know he was thankful for everyone being there and celebrating with us. It was so nice to see our family and friends together in our house for the first time. It was very special for me.

I love Jason more then there are words. I hope he knows that.

Happy Birthday Honey!

Happy Birthday Jason!

I am so glad I get to spend the rest of your birthdays with you. I hope you enjoy your day.
I Love You!

Singing

I went to a rehearsal for the Messiah sing-along today. I actually had fun today (secretly I was hoping I wouldn't). I was really nervous because I haven't sang in such a long time, but I held my own. I actually have a solo I did so well :)

I think next semester I am going to join the community choir so I can sing Mozart's Requiem. I just have to get a score so I can start working on the solos :)

I think I have the bug again. Only time will tell.

Test

Last Friday I went to have a test for what I that was an ultrasound to see if my tubes were open and if I had any new cyst. It actually turned to be a pretty intense procedure. The procedure is called a Hysterosalpingogram (HSG for short). It's an x-ray of the uterus and fallopian tubes with contrast dye.

So I get to the hospital and I check in. I find out that this test is going to cost me $600, I think "man this better be worth it". I get my wrist ban and the send me up to radiology. Jason was so good with me, rubbing my back and telling me everything is going to be OK (I love him so). So I have to wait for a while for the Dr. to get my lab results back (I am not a patient person so this was driving me nuts).

They finally called me back to the room and the tech walks me through what is "going" to happen. She tells me that she has been administering the test for 30 yrs and that her patients usually get pregnant after the test, so against my better judgment I get my hopes up.

I undress and put on the hospital gown then hope on the table. Then I wait...

Finally after the 30 minutes the radiologist comes in. He tells me in his own words whats going to happen: 1st, he is going to put in the speculum in and look at my cervix. Then he will clean it and insert a tube through the cervical opening and inject a contrast dye. Next he will blow a bubble to seal in the dye and then look at the tubes to see if the re blocked.
He says there might be a little discomfort but just like a normal exam. I think, that's OK since I usually don't feel the that exam.

So I lye back and they start. At first everything was going good, no real discomfort. He got ready to insert the tube and then the "fun" started.

He tried to insert the tube but could not get a "good" angle. He tried for like 15 minutes. I started to get nervous (more nervous). He popped his head up and said he is going to try a different tool and that I will hear a metal clinking sound. He also said that I might feel a little discomfort, but I thought no biggie, he said that before.

He re-cleans my cervix and say, "OK, here we go". Then all of a sudden PAIN beyond my wildest imagination. All I could do is cry. I start bawling beyond my control, it hurt so bad. I was squeezing the techs had and she was trying to sooth me but I could not get over the pain. It felt like he cut my cervix. PAIN!!!! That's all I can say about that.

I stop crying and after about 10 minutes he finishes. He comes around to me and says that he could not complete the procedure, my cervical opening is blocked and he can't get the tube in to do the test...
WHAT, I went through all this pain for nothing!!!! I could not believe my ears.

He left me to get dress, my mind just kept racing. I don't think it would have been that bad if Jason was in the procedure room with me but he was not allowed.

I go out to the waiting room and I see Jason and I burst in to tears. I felt like I let him down. I got my hopes up thinking this was finally our chance just to be turned down again.
I am stating to re- think all this testing, I was just traumatized and I don't know if I can do it again. I don't know how I can live through another let down. My heart hurts...

Since I can remember I have always wanted to be a mother. I know that is in My plan. Jason is an amazing man and I know he will be a great father. I know that is in His plan. We together will make amazing parents, give kids an amazing a home to grow up in This is in OUR plan.
I know good things come to those how what but I am really tired of waiting for this part our life to start.

I think Jason and I will start seriously start the adoption process next year. As long as we have a family, that's most important.

For know I will trust that God knows what he is doing. I pray that it is in His plan for us to parents.

Sleep?

What is it? How can I get it? When does it come?
I am so tired but when I lay down my mind keeps racing about the days events and the day to come.

It's not far!

All I want to do is sleep for 6 hrs straight. I don't remember the last time I did that, even when I was vacation I only slept may 3 hrs a night.
I have worked so much the last few days and have had no sleep, I don't know how I am goign to make it the rest of the week.

Please pray for me and my sanity :)

Nervous

Today I go and have an ultrasound to see if my tube are open and if I have anymore cyst on my ovaries. I hope everything turn out alright, I don't know what I would do if the tell me I cant have a baby. Lets pray that it's just that I'm not ovulating, which is an easy fix. *fingers crossed*

Why?

I am so tired of working. I hate my job more and more each day but I'm stuck until I can find my passion again. Why does it have to be so difficult?